BB Grey–musings

“With every breath, with every silent prayer, I embrace this fall, this existential dare.”

In the depths of a void, where shadows stretch long, I speak to you, God, with a heart heavy with song. An emptiness vast, where no light dares to gleam, A place I’ve known before, a recurring dream.

Rock bottom, they say, a place to rebuild, But I feel the fall, endless, no ground to yield. The times before, I thought the descent was done, Yet here I am again, with the fall begun.

This time, I embrace the plunge, the dark embrace, Letting go of all holds, all illusions of grace. No more false stops, no more resting my feet, I let myself fall, into the endless seat.

The air grows thin, each breath a sharp sting, Yet in this descent, there’s peace I now bring. Stripping away all that once was my plight, Expectations, failures, out of my sight.

I used to believe in a bottom, a start anew, But now I see, it’s the fall that’s true. We’re all descending, at speeds we can’t tell, Some stand still, but is that truly well?

In this darkness, where even my hands disappear, There’s exhilaration, a freedom from fear. I wonder, God, if you watch from above, Or if in this void, I find your love.

Will I emerge, or will I simply cease? My consciousness, like stardust, released. Part of me hopes for your hand to appear, But another part, just wants to fall, to end here.

So I fall, through the night, through the unknown, Finding in the descent, a truth to be shown. With every breath, with every silent prayer, I embrace this fall, this existential dare.